Grieving took awhile. Then the grieving evolved into apathy. Apathy for everything around me.
Have you ever seen the film ‘A Ghost Story’? If you haven’t, it’s incredible. It tackles grief in one of the most profound ways I’ve ever seen. I loved the movie when it first came out. It hits… different… now. Deeper. I highly recommend it, whether you’ve experienced incredible levels of grief or not.
I finally got back to working on the edit of the film. Well, I opened the project, anyway. Didn’t get much work done. I stumbled upon a moment between takes when we left the camera running… we were waiting for a plane to pass for sound. Brian and I fell into our normal banter during it. It was like he was alive again. I got to experience my best friend… just as he was in our friendship. I started skimming through the footage, skipping past the takes for the film, searching for other such moments. I needed to watch them. I needed to experience them. Like I need air.
It’s a step. Albeit a small one. But no less important.